Archive for July, 2009

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the day i went shopping

July 27, 2009

When i was younger and was still studying my mother would often tell me “pagbutihin mo ang pag aaral mo, pag nakapagtapos ka na at meron ka ng trabaho mabibili mo na ang mga gusto mo,makakain mo na ang mga pagkaing gusto mo. ikaw pa naman puro masarap ang gusto mo” It seems like mama was trying to bribe me to be good. or she was just trying to teach me things the light way. Whenever she told me those I would just give an impish grin, not that i find her speech cheesy but because i didnt want to make a promise. i’d rather show her my obedience rather than commit to something that i may not fulfill later on. But silently, within myself I valued her advice. I’ve seen how much she and tatay worked hard to sail our rather big family through the tides of life. I cannot afford to give them further sufferings. Anyway what they want me to do is actually for my own good.

After several years along with numerous adversities I finally graduated. on the day of my graduation i discreetly looked on my parents. what i observed was that they were happier than I was. My graduation was their graduation. Finally they are done sending their ten children to school. they must have sighed a huge sigh of relief.

this weekend i went out for a little shopping. i was planning then to save for a couple of months. i was lusting for a Nokia e63 which is currently retailing at 13 thousand but i changed my mind. i didn’t want delayed gratification anymore and i felt that i can still bear my two aging phones.  So off i went and made some purchases which the major one was a bag from Marithe Francois Girbaud.

While I was at the mall i remembered what mama told me. she is right. i am glad i obeyed. What i am earning right now is not that big. good thing i live at kuya’s. I need not pay for rent and other utilities. for a start i am doing good though my hoisting of the banner of total financial independence may not be very soon.

I hope whoever may read this will not get me wrong. To brag is not my point.what i want to say is that obedience is not a bad thing, at first when we are still waging war with the demons of our youth our parent’s warnings and advices may seem like some sort of a bitter pill but in the long run we will see that they are not. they are the medicines that will keep us well.

I just hope and pray that God would be merciful as always with me. I pray that I may be able to continue this journey. If its not too much to ask I hope HE allows me to successfully climb the corporate ladder, to shine in my own way, to learn and to influence others positively the same way that other people like my bosses and officemates are influencing me.

I know and I feel that I am on the right track now thus i pray na sana hindi na ako maliko pa. I dont want exactly to play safe i just want to be able to make good things happen for i know whenever i fall it is my parents who get hurt ten folds more. i dont want them neither sad nor hurt.

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happy 8!

July 25, 2009

today is no ordinary day. on this same day 8 years ago 16 people became friends and remain friends until today.

its sad that i am not with any of them today to celebrate this milestone but just the same i dedicated this day to remember them.

it seems like it was only yesterday. we we’re teeners then playing the field of adolescence but now we are young adults finding our place in different fields. the good thing is we never outgrow the friendship that made our highschool days damn good. up to this day i can still clearly picture in my mind how we were before – the way we played and got to know each other in our isolated classroom when we were in second year, the way dson and joy would have a chase during overtimes when preparing for school activities, the miniature church na project namin nila Madz at Edison kay Ma’m Querijero. the way each one would go out of her way to help out the one who was in need whether it was for the complicated trigonometry problem or to deal with one’s heart stories, di ba Jam, Niño, Erik, Jeruel, Tin, Edison and Cressie? its good to look back in the past. i miss Diane, Fiona, and Juvy.

since its already 7 and i am still in an internet cafe in a mall all by myself i need to shorten this post now.

Happy Anniversary!

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pink

July 23, 2009

why  did i entitle my post tonight as PINK?

because….

1)i am wearing a pink long sleeves.hehe. i’m here in an internet cafe. I went here immediately after work. actually i dont really like blogging in public. this page is something really personal. in this page i really am myself, i write right from my heart. this is where i dont mind being silly.but then i dont have my own pc anymore. but my need for expression is greater than the discomforts of being in a public place so here i am writing while bearing the noise of the owner of this shop. i wonder why he never seem to stop talking.

2) i am better today than when i wrote my previous post. there were some very positive changes that happened at work so i dont get infused with boredom anymore.

andami ko sanang mga kwento about my work, the quirkiness of everyday life, of how i coped up and adapted to the things that used to be foreign to me,but i dont have much time…

3) i am enjoying my life now. i realized what made me unhappy the previous week was brought about my worrying for the future. i also got impatient. but now with some thoughtful conversations with friends i am reminded that i am actually lucky for having this job.

with a cheerful sigh i grimaced”ano naman gusto ko manager agad, ambisyosa naman ako masyado”hehehe

yesterday our manager conferred with us. of all the things she mentioned what really seeped to me was this  “it is never about what is your job, it is about HOW you do your job”.

Ma’am, noted.

I intend to continue doing the things i have to do the best way i can.

From now on i will not be unhappy just because of some useless worrying for the future, a time that hasn’t come instead i will seize the day.

Carpe Diem!

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state of the “working girl” address

July 18, 2009

People of the Philippines and of the world, Good day!

This is PAM who is in disarray from extreme boredom. just joking..hehehe

ok ..serious mode na…if you’ll gonna ask me how am I would say “ok lng” coz I am, I am ok, I am alright but that’s not the end of the story.

I’ve been working for the last three months and its been a very eye opening experience. I am now used to the things that used to be so new and exciting three months ago. Whether it is a good thing, i dunno, probably not.

“Always evolving” might be apt to describe me. I always want something new. Routine is not my thing. Challenges excite me for they are the best way to improve. When things get too ordinary and complacency starts to rule the game, boredom looms.

Pero sabi nga PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE. Di lahat ng bagay nangyayari ng madalian so I’d better behave and continue doing what I ought to do excellently. Therefore I am making a promise never to be late for work again.ever.

If only

I know I am the one who preaches “wag masyado mapaghanap, kung ano ang nandyan yun ang ienjoy at ipagpasalamat” but right now I think I’m gonna break my own sermon by having these….

  • If only kuya Joel will give the laptop back I will be darn happy.
  • If only I can watch Lady Gaga’s concert in Araneta happening very soon.
  • If only graveyard work is not risky for our health I might be working in a call center and earn ATLEAST 13k
  • If only I have time and money I will go backpacking all over the Philippines,wanna join? first stop Batanes then Panglao Bohol


The Perks and the Cons of being a working girl,lady,woman, whatever….

  • Con – have to be more responsible with money matters. It’s awkward to ask for money from thy tatay,kuya or ate. Gone is the monthly drip of bread.
  • Perk – you gain some sort of authority and self respect, especially, when superiors say that you do your job well
  • Perk- you get to know the value of money, you get to understand what the folks used to say
  • Con- have to be innovative in finding ways to keep excitement and enthusiasm for work up.

Oh man..i have mentioned the word “money” for ten thousand times now,hehe,I guess working in a bank is making me mukhang money.haha!

Til next time. Writing is always a pleasure but kuya joel took the laptop away, i may sulk until I wrinkle like a raisin but it’s not gonna help. All i can do is remain standing tall even when there are things that weigh me down.