thankful

It’s been a while since I last wrote an extensive post. I’d like to do one this time. There are times that I find it hard to write but when I remember that I am blogging mostly for my self, to take a record of my life I get motivated to write again.

This morning I had a pleasant surprise. A friendster friend sent me a message. It says

A message from 1st NoeLLe:

hello!

good day! you’ve been introduced to me by Precy,when she learned that i’m from bianuan too.

thanks for adding me to your friends list,

I’m a big fan of your blogs,you’ve got talents…

best regards to you and your family,

keep up the good work…

GODBLESS!

I am really flattered and I really appreciate it. Being able to express myself is already a reward to me so to be appreciated or to receive positive comments is more than enough to make me smile and be thankful.

I don’t see myself as someone who is good in anything. In everything I do I just give what I can with a purpose to be better than yesterday. I know I have so much to learn. Life is a continuous process of learning as I often say. It’s a journey that I am loving to take on together with Him, my family and friends and people I have met and will be meeting in the future.

Probably this would be my last entry for this year. After I’ve posted this I will fix my things and go to Baler. At 7pm it will be our high school reunion. Tomorrow I am going home to Casiguran to spend New Year with my parents and three of my nine kuyas and ates. Haha finally I have revealed. Yes we’re ten children in the family. I am the youngest.

Although we’re a big family we were seldom complete. Well, that’s part of growing up. Each one of us has our own lives to lead. It just so happens that we can’t be together. Nonetheless one thing will not change and its the fact that we are family. No matter what and where ever we are the tie that binds us will always be there.

I would say 2008 was a good year for me. I have learned so much this year. One of these is to be positive in life. I have learned to be thankful in everything. To count my blessings and not the things that I don’t have. I am glad that I’ve been able to be mature in a thing or two.

I am thankful that I have my family. Although I seldom get to see or talk to most of them I know they have never forgotten about me. I will always be their “May”. I feel blessed for having them.

I am happy that I have many friends. Through the years my high school friends have shown me that they are for real. Whether I was up or I was down they were always there for me. There was a time that I got drowned out on my own and wanted to be by myself but when I got over it and was ready to mingle again they still accepted me with open arms.

On Christmas Day I was with some of them. The day after when I was home and thought of the day that passed I can’t help but smile because I’ve seen how lucky I am for having them. Most of them have already graduated from College, UP graduates, but I’ve never felt like they have changed. They were still the same friends I’ve known since our first year in high school.

I am also happy because more friends came into my life. They were the ones I met in College. My classmates and other acquaintances. And also my classmates and friends in elementary. They have become part of my life and they will never be forgotten.

Definitely life is not a bed of roses. Things don’t always come easy. But it doesn’t really matter. What’s important is that we learn. I have learned to enjoy life. To live life by the present, to be contented while working on achieving greater things and to accept myself for who I am without comparing myself with the others.

I am glad that somehow I could say that I am not an insecure person. Sometimes insecurities are self inflicted and could be destructive. I accept the fact that I have many flaws physical or otherwise. But these flaws don’t make me less of a person. All I have to do is to keep on getting a little better than the day before.

I am happy when I know the people I care for are happy and are succeeding in life. My friends who are now climbing up the ladder of success are inspirations to me. My elementary friends are doing great. Chary is now jet setting, Dhona and Chery and the others are already working in Manila. I find it so good that although they have reached something when I talk to them whether not personally they were still the same – grounded and humble.

I may not be materially rich but I care for many people and I know they care about me too.

So I think that’s all for now. Got to do the packing. Thanks for the great year. I am looking forward to another great year ahead.

God Bless Us all.

Happy New Year!

ho-ho-holiday!

After years of procrastination finally I had the courage and enough guts to take the risk. I’ve had my hair rebounded. When I was young I used to have a naturally beautiful hair but starting in my fourth year in high school it started to fall into the dread zone.

Bob Ong’s Stainless Longganisa

While roaming through the aisles of the national bookstore I spotted a counter top filled with Bob Ong’s book. There were three titles that I haven’t read yet. They were Mac Arthur, Alamat ng Gubat and Stainless Longganisa. I chose to buy the latest after I’ve read the synopsis in each back cover of the books. Stainless longganisa primarily talks about the journey Bob had as he wrote his books. It’s also filled with interesting and even weird things about many world renowned authors. Like the other books this one is very well written. It’s direct to the point and very conversational. I’d say its a great read for everyone especially to those who likes to write. Ong also showed the importance of reading. It was a good buy for me. Although reading it took my attention off from other things only for a coupleof hours.

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Words of Wisdom according to me ^^

>> No one can ever hurt you unless you let yourself be hurt. It all boils down to your own self. Similarly, you can’t be happy unless you choose to.

>> It’s all about enjoying things as they come. There’s no need to think about every little detail or make every emotion a big deal because one thing is for sure – it will CHANGE.

>> Sometimes everyone needs to unleash the “bitch” within not because trip mo lang but to protect yourself. Sometimes being too nice is unhealthy.

>> There are things that are just purely complicated that we’d rather not deal with it. Step back and relax. Go smell the coffee. There are better things to do other than to think of the unthinkable.

give me a chance

I miss writing. I can’t blog as often as before. I don’t have my own PC with me. I go online in an internet shop.

Well, time really flies. tommorow is already half month off december. Today is the birthday of my twin brothers. Kuya Ronie and Kuya Rene.

But I can’t help to feel somehow frustrated with what’s been happening with our hunt for OJT. it was harder than we’ve ever expected. Yesterday I thought what if the lost etelecare opportunity was my only chance. Why all doors seem close. Nobody calls. Nobody emails back.  whew!that was kinda emo.

Still. I am doing my best not to lose hope. there’s gotta be an end to it. I just have to be patient…really patient.

If we find one I would be really happy and I promise myself that I will do my best. I would treasure it very well since i feel how hard to find it.

as of now i can’t feel the carefree and merry feel that usually comes with the holidays.

Internship….searching…

I’ve been here in Manila since December 2. On December 3 I went to Etelecare Shaw. I passed the 3 part written exam however in the second interview the interviewer said that they cannot hire me because i am still a student. I made a mistake.  I failed to elaborate and convince him that there wouldn’t be a problem even if I am still a student. I can work as usual like any other employee.  Maybe my nerves got me because it was my first time and the interviewer was sort of intimidating. When I assessed what happened when I got home I thought he didn’t give me enough chance and time to explain. Nonetheless I felt some fulfillment since I was among the few examinees who passed the written tests. Most of the other examinees were older.

On December 5, I and my classmates went to SMX Convention Center in SM Mall of Asia to see the COMDDAP Expo.

Until now I and my five other classmates are still looking for a company where we  can have our internship. We’ve been to some companies like IBM and ABS CBN. The companies just asked us to leave a resume. They said they’ll just call us. However until now we haven’t got a call from them.

It’s a bit frustrating. I certainly would love to find one soon.

Please help us…