Pressure

Sink or swim?

Sa ngayon ang buhay ko ay katulad ng picture na yan. Stormy. I’m doing my best not to sink. Sana makaya ko. Sana malapit ng matapos ang lahat ng to. Galing ako sa doktor kanina. Binigyan nya ako ng mga gamot. Sana naman gumaling na ako. Bukas exactly 3 weeks na akong may ubo. Buti na lang di na ako gaanong nilalagnat at sinisipon tulad ng dati. Kung makakapagpahinga lang sana ako ng mabuti gagaling ako agad. Kaya lang di pwede. May malaki pa akong problemang dapat harapin at ayusin. Nakasalalay dito future ko.

Confused na ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong isipin at maramdaman. Dinadaan ko na lang sa pagsulat dito sa blog dahil wala naman ako mapagkwentuhan ng lahat lahat. Di ko pa sinasabi sa family ko na di pa ako pinapayagan mag enroll. Sigurado kakailanganin ko pang magpaliwanag kung bakit naging ganito ang mga nangyayari. To explain myself is the least thing I want to do right now.

I don’t want to put all the blame on myself. Kung victim lang ba ako ng sitwasyon di ko alam. What if lalong gumulo ang mga pangyayari at di talaga ako payagan mag enroll? Pano na ako? Ano ng mangyayari sa akin? Hay..kung kailan last sem na magkakaproblema pa. Masyado na nga akong huli. Napagiiwanan na ako. I would hate to see myself sinking into nothingness.

sh*t!

Isa sa mga bagay na iniiwasan ko ay pagmumura. Pero sa ngayon, sa mga nangyayari, yun ang gustong gusto ko ng isigaw. Sana basketball game lang ang lahat para pwede akong humingi ng time out. Nahihirapan na ako. Kung hanggang saan ako makakarating, kung hanggang kailan ko kakayanin, hindi ko alam. Kung pwede lang sana na matulog muna ako ng mahimbing at paggising ko ok na ang lahat.

Siguro kasalanan ko rin ang lahat kung bakit nahihirapan ako ngayon. Dahil na rin sa mga bagay na pinili kong pahalagahan. At ngayon ang mga bagay na hindi ko pinili ay bumabalik na at nagpapahirap.

Oo, pinili ko ang mga kaklase ko na itinuring kong mga totoong kaibigan kaysa sa responsibilidad. Mali na kung mali. Sisihin na ako ng sinuman na gustong sumisi sa akin pero hindi ko pinagsisihan yun dahil sa kanila natagpuan ko ang sarili ko na masaya, magaan ang pakiramdam at positibo ang lahat. Sa kanila naramdaman kong maging buo uli.

May mga pagkakataon na kailangan kong mag-isa. Hindi dahil wala na ang mga kaibigan, ipinagwalangbahala ng mga kapamilya, iniwan ng mahalagang tao kundi dahil may mga bagay na tanging sarili ko lang mismo ang makakatulong, sarili ko lang  ang higit sa lahat ang makakaintindi sa kung anumang kailangang pagdaanan.

sa Casiguran

Liwanag sa Karimlan

Kung ang mundo mo’y binalot ng kadiliman

Di magtatagal darating din ang kaliwanagan

Kailangan lang maghintay at Siya’y pagtiwalaan

Sapagka’t ika’y di Niya iiwan kailanman

Sa dulo ng mahakbang paglalakbay

Ika’y di dapat magpatalo sa lumbay

Isipin lamang na may magandang bukas na naghihintay

At sa Kanyang kalinga wag hayaang mawalay

Sembreak trips:

(Kung ano ano galing sa isang linggong bakasyon sa Casiguran)

Style Nakanampucha.com ‘to. Sign sa cr ng bus stop ng DLiner sa Dinadiawan. Ayaw daw mag plus! e mag minus, gusto kaya?! ^^

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Watta coincidence! yung nakasabay ko pauwi nakasabay ko uli pabalik. Tawagin natin siang red girl dahil napansin ko na laging pula ang suot niya. Siya ay bakasyonistang kolehiyala. Nung pabalik nagkataon na seatmates kami sa bus. Ang lakas ng volume ng iPod ko pero narinig ko pa rin nung may kausap siya sa celfone. Hanep sa accent. Sosyalan.

Red Girl: Hello, nasan ka na? Ano pahintuin ko ba dyan? Dito kame sa terminal.

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Red Girl: Oo paalis na. Meron lang fini-fix

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Red Girl: O sige. Bilis ngarud!

Ako: *****…..un lang…..******

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Usapan sa kainan:

Tatay: Ang alam ko sa eskwelahan may mga schedule na sinusunod. Sinasabi kung kailan matatapos ang mga klase….

Ako: Meron pa kami ginawa. Madami projects. (***lumulusot***)

Tatay: Kailan pa ba sinabi sainyo yang mga gagawin na yan? Sigurado matagal na yan…

Ako: …….  (***no comment***)

Ate: Matagal na yan. Sakit na yan ng mga estudyante, kung kailan pasahan saka pa lang gumagawa.

Tatay: Bakit ikaw nagiisip ka naman hindi ba, bakit ganun?

Ako: …….  (***aww! sapul men! ***)

Ako: Marami kasi talaga. Lagi pati wala klase. (***lumulusot pa rin***)

Tatay: Dapat kahit wala ang nagtuturo sa inyo ginagawa pa rin ang mga pinapagawa.

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Hindi naman sa ako’y chismosa pero madalas nakikinig ako sa usapan ng matatanda. Bakit matanda na rin naman na ako ah. Di naman ako nakikisali sa usapan kapag hindi kailangan basta nakikinig lang ako, nag oobserve, pinupulot ang maganda at pinapalabas na lang sa kabilang tenga ang mga hindi kapakipakinabang.

Minsan may may-edad na lalaki ang nagpunta sa bahay. May transaksyon siya kay tatay. nagkataon na andun din ako, naghihintay ng masasakyan. Napansin nya na paalis ako. Tawagin natin siyang Gabby dahil Concepcion pala ang apelyido niya.

Gabby: Paalis ka? Mahirap sumakay ano. Yung public utility vehicle, public inutil vehicle na.

Ganyan talaga kapag iba na ang nag mamanage. 99.9% ng mga negosyo na ipinasa sa anak bumabagsak paano hindi nila alam ang hirap   kung paano naitayo.

Yan ang hirap pag ang mga magulang hindi pinaranas ng hirap ang anak. Kapag basta bigay na lang ng bigay ng pera na di man lang tinatanong kung saan gagamitin.

Tatay: Akala nag-aaral yun pala naglalakwatsa lang.

Ako: (****ilag ilag baka tamaan****)

Madami pa sila pinagusapan, ito pa yung natandaan ko.

Gabby: Marami ang gusto yumaman. Pero wala pa ako narinig na nagsabi na isasama nila sa langit ang yaman. Paano? Maisasama sa langit ang yaman sa pamamagitan ng paggawa ng mabuti sa kapwa dito sa lupa ngayon.

Kung tutuusin ang dami nilang magagawang mabuti dito sa pera nila pero wala.

hmmm…sino kaya tinutukoy niya?

Visual Basic…

Relieved. Exhausted. That’s how I feel now that our Visual Basic project is already done. Maybe I’ll come home to Bianoan, Casiguran tomorrow. I had such gruesome days since Friday. I feel so tired but I am happy because somehow the hardest parts of my senior year in college is over. On Friday we started to work really hard on the project. I brought my computer to Baler so I can work with my classmates. I cannot finish the project alone. That Friday night I didn’t get any sleep, not even a single second. I worked on the project the entire night until morning. I didn’t quite notice the time. Before long the sun was up again as we’ve seen outside the window of Darwin’s boarding house.

By about ten in the morning, Saturday, we went to school to pass the project. I was feeling exuberant because I felt like I really gave my all in the project. I only had our combined breakfast and lunch at three in the afternoon at Aicie’s boarding house because there was no any open store near the school.We are about to faint from combined fatigue and hunger so we invaded Aicie’s house. I ate a lot. I was about to starve really. It was my first rice meal since Friday morning. O yeah Darwin gave me a rice and pancit canton midnight meal on Friday night I forgot. After the lamon, I laid on the chair. I was awaken after sometime when I felt that someone was taking pictures on me. Si Darwin pala. Tagal ko pala bago nagising ang dami ko nang kuha na tulog na tulog at nakanganga pa!

ASCOT campus

However, we were unsuccesful. There were errors. The program can’t be installed. Jerome tried to fix it and have it passed until the last hour of Saturday but we failed. Sir Marmol gave us until Monday to pass it but we will be having some point deduction.

I was already giving up. Sabi ko kay Jerome, ayaw ko na. Ikaw na bahala jan. Uuwi na ako. But Annie Vi and Yorick offered to help me since they were already done. That night I didn’t come home again. Annie and Yorick have already succeeded on passing their projects. But I didn’t get to work that night just the same. I immediately fell asleep.I didn’t get to eat anymore. I have serious cough and cold the entire time. From time to time I would be awaken because I cough so hard that it felt like my stomach was turning upside down. My other classmates were working on their projects at Yorick’s and my computer.

I woke up by about nine in the morning. Then I, Annie and Yorick started doing our project. I was still wearing the same clothes I was wearing since Saturday morning. I came home about past three in the afternoon. I just ate, took a bath, looked for my library card that I still didn’t find, and get some things then I went back to Baler.

Annie Vi and Yorick weren’t home yet. They told me to wait for them at caltex convenience store. I met my high school teachers there. We said our his. They asked me where do I study and if I am already about to graduate. By that time my voice was really hoarse. Daig ko pa ang tatlong sunod sunod na gabi nagconcert. We bought a lot of food stuff so we can have our energy for another long night. We slept at 1:30 in the morning.

When we woke up this morning we finished the project.

I also went to the law office to get an affidavit of loss for my library card.

We went to the library but they wont sign my clearance still although I already have the affidavit. She told me to come back during the enrollment because I need to be given with another card first. Hassle naman. Di naman nga ako naglalibrary. OJT na rin next sem di pa pinirmahan.

Afterwards, we passed the project. Finally it was successfully installed and executed in Sir’s computer.

screen shots of the user interface of our vb program

I can’t thank Annie and Yorick enough for helping me. If not for them maybe until now I am still in trouble with the project aside from having these whooping cough and cold.

They are the best. They are true friends. They never left me behind. They could have done other stuffs since they are already done with their own projects but they did not. Nagpuyat pa rin sila. Wala ako masabi. Sana di kayo magbago. With them I am sure that I am in good hands.

Annie Vi and Yorick

Today is also Aimee’s birthday. We went to their house. Kumain kami. Sarap.

At six in the evening I was home. I brought my computer back.

Finally I can have a good night sleep now. I am so tired. I hope now that I can already rest my cough and cold would be relieved too.

Don’t Know Why-Norah Jones

sunrise, dreams, lastfm…

Napahiga ako kanina, di ko namalayan nakatulog ako agad. Ang lalim ng tulog ko nanaginip na pati ako. Ang ganda ng panaginip ko. Yung mga kakilala ko daw gumawa ng diorama, project daw nila yun. According to wikipedia ang diorama daw ay 3D representation ng mga objects. Cardboard medium niya. Kina cut out para lumabas yung details. Bago ang hindi ko sinasadyang pagtulog binisita ko uli yung blog ni Ala (Paredes).Siya yung VJ sa MYX dati, na curly ang hair at anak siya ni Jim Paredes ng APO. Grabe fan na nya ako. Ang galing nya. Napakasensible ng mga entry nya.

Madami akong natututunan mula sa mga kwento niya. Sa australia na siya nakatira at nagaaral ng design. Visit her blog and see for yourself. Back to the diorama thing, Ala did a diorama for her class, ang ganda! Dun naman sa panaginip ko yung mga kakilala ko gumawa din daw tapos ang gaganda din. Nakapost nga daw sa BatangBaler yung mga pictures.

Gusto ko sana magpost ng picture ni Ala dito pero wag na lang, mahirap na. You know copyright issues. hehe. Careful careful mahirap na maposasan.

Matagal ko nang pinapraktis yung magising yung diwa ko while I am dreaming para matandaan ko yung panaginip paggising. Hindi ako ganun ka superstitious na tao pero I believe in dreams. Bawat napapanaginipan may relevance yun sa buhay natin at kung maiidentify natin kung ano ang mga symbolism na yun makakatulong yun para mapaghandaan natin yung mga dadating na pangyayari o kung minsan para maexplain natin sa sarili natin yung mga nakaraang nangyari. Natry ko na several times yun and so far totoo naman.

Siyangapala early morning kanina, napasilip ako sa bintana after how many days nun ko lang uli nakita ang sunrise. May orange streaks dun sa North. Napangiti ako. Parang it symbolizes hope. Naisip ko maybe sign yun na end na ng dark days ko. I took a snap

All these time, music ang kasama ko. Basta with good music around ok na ako. I am currently fiddling with LastFm. I downloaded yung player niya para I can automatically listen to internet music kahit di na ako pumunta sa site. Ang pinakagusto ko dito kailangan ko lang ilagay for example name nung artist o genre ng music na gusto kong pakinggan. Ang ipplay na niyang mga music ay yung related dun sa choice ko. Tapos may kasama pa siyang detailed article about the artist. Kaya nageenjoy na ako nakikilala ko pa mga singer. Pinakamadalas ko pinapakinggan sina John Mayer, Alicia Keys, Joss Stone at Norah Jones. Ang bago kong gusto din ay si Amos Lee.

Medyo cool and relaxed na ako ngayon, nakukuha ko pa mag blog. Nakapagpahinga na kasi ako. At sabi sa akin ni Jerome matatapos na niya project namin. Yahoo! Medyo shy nga ako sa kanya kasi wala ako tulong dun. Sabi ko ako na lang ang gagawa nung written report nung project.  Alam naman niya na maysakit ako mula pa last week kaya di ako nakakajoin sa paggawa sa Baler, kaya sana he understands. Sabi ko kaninang umaga dito na lang sa amin gumawa pero di ok siguro kaya di sila nagpunta. Sana wala ng maging problema para makauwi na ako sa sabado. Maipasa sana namin ng maayos bukas. Tommorrow’s going to be a big day.

Gawin ko na later yung report. I hope I can handle it. Talagang inuna ko pa itong blog kesa dun no! Blogging is my escape. Kapag naisusulat ko ang mga nasa isip ko I feel better.

Poll. Sumagot ka!^_^

mission impossible?

1:22pm

huhu..di ko yata kaya. i can’t push myself for more. I am exhausted. Pero ayaw ko matulog baka di ako magising. ^^  I had ony three hours of sleep, 2-5am. mula kahapon hanggang ngayon nakaharap ako sa computer. Pero mukhang imposible talaga. Kaya Jerome para mo nang awa pumunta kayo dito. hehe. Bukas na deadline. Programming pa nmn subject at si sir marmol ang instructor.

visual basic

Luckily I am feeling better, I can now do my project in visual basic. It’s due on Friday. Gudlak sa kin. Matapos ko sana. Nangangapa pa naman ako. Di ko masyado kabisado ang implementation ng codes. Kung kaya ko na di matulog di ako matutulog. Ang gaganda nga mga pinapakinggan kong kanta kaya ok lang naman ako kahit ako na lang ang gising dito ngayon.

Gusto ko magawa itong project na to. Matapos ko sana on time. This is my last shot. Last chance.

sore throat

I write although I don’t have specific thing in mind to say. I just want to let loose. I want to simply keep tapping the keys and  hope I could write out the right words. I don’t know what to say. I am growing used to the physical pain along with my cough, cold and recurring fever. I want to drift off, I want to spend all my time reading and writing. I don’t want to go to school anymore but I can’t do it. I have projects to attend to. I don’t know but it feels like I am missing out on something. If only someone would give me a call I would be so much better.

The weather’s making me gloomy. I keep the radio on to keep me off from further agonizing thoughts. This is the first time I would say this, I feel alone and lonely. I hope this is just another bluish moments along with being sick. I want to get well really soon. I want to regain the cheerfulness I usually have. I don’t want to be alone. Why am I not enjoying solitude? What’s wrong? Well, all sick people are unhappy, aren’t they? There are people around me but I don’t really interact with them. Talking makes my throat hurt more. This is going to change soon. Hopefully I can come home this Saturday. I will be better off there. That’s where I belong. Although I can’t access the internet while there I plan to watch movies, write more, eat my heart out and be simply merry with my family instead.

If I have a super power, I would press the fast forward button. Tomorrow will be better than today and yesterday, I hope.

The rain pours so hard again but I must come to school. How am I going to get well when I have to always go through the cause of my sickness?

By the way, my site meter confirms that this blog of mine has a loyal viewer. He checks it out everyday and spends a minimum of half an hour each visit. Whoever you are thank you very much. I really appreciate it that you are paying attention or somehow you are listening to what I have to say. Please let me hear from you.

rants

Rants of a feverish me, tonight at 9:49pm while waiting for Annie Vi and Yorick to arrive to do a project.

Which do you follow when you make your choices, your heart that tells you what makes you happy or your mind that tells you what is right?

How do you answer the question “Would you rather be wrong but happy or right but sad?”

Would you regret something that made you happy or would you wish that it never happened at all because it hurts when its gone?

Who’s to be blamed, the one who made and broke their promises or those who actually believed?

Can old flames be really friends or would it be better to forget everything altogether?

Can you really forgive and forget?

Can a player change? Or would it be once a cheater, always a cheater?

Why do sometimes life is like a race car, ang bilis magshift ng gear!

Some people when it comes to relationships, are like having a joyride, palaging may spare tire para tuloy ang ligaya kapag na flat ang isa.

walang lang…chorva…wala lang magawa..^^

Emo? Not really…

I have all the reasons to go emo-oo. But I am not that so low yet. I am keeping it light. The music I am listening to helps me. I am listening to John Mayer, Lifehouse, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Norah Jones and Richard Poon at LastFM.com.

First, I am still sick. Fever keeps coming back. Is this Dengue? Hope not. Certainly not. If it is I may not be having the time of my life here on the net. I have heavy cough and cold though. Plus there are cold sores in my mouth.

Second, I have three major projects on the line all due this week. Fortunately those were group projects. I hope my group mates will do better than the way I am doing.

Third, I also have an unfinished business in school related to the publication. I am going to fix it tomorrow. My org mate informed me that ma’am is putting an ultimatum on us. No sign in our clearance. How’s that. Oh man! I better fix it although I thought my duty about it was already done, but it seems like I was mistaken.

Fourth, I have a final exam tomorrow so I really have to come to school however I may be feeling and even if I cough like my tonsil’s going to come out. ^^

Fifth and the hardest maybe, people fail me. But there’s nothing I can do about it. I accept what happened. I choose to forgive than to sulk in anger. I can never control how people behave. Nonetheless, I am still standing up and trying to go on living my life the best way I can.

Earlier today about three in the morning, I was awaken on my sleep. I was in pain from the fever and cough, the sore and the onset of cold, it’s the stabbing sensation on the muscles. It felt like I had broken bones. It was the third time that I had experienced it. They call it puntada o lamig.ewan ko, basta sya na yun. Those who know about it for sure would know how painful it is. I had my cry baby cry episode 2.

That moment, although I didn’t want to be sad I cant help it. Why is everything going against me? I asked myself. (Well that was emo) Everything crashes down. Maybe the wheel has turned. It’s the dark times of my life. I just can’t help to wonder who would be with me in this kind of time. I am not expecting or asking anyone to help me though, I am just observing. After a long time I cried while praying. In Him I found the comfort I was looking for. I asked for His forgiveness. Afterwards, I was able to sleep again.

By the way, last Friday Darwin forwarded a text quote which goes like “When you’re up your friends know you, when you’re down you know who your friends are” Yeah right. That is so right. So this time I will see. I have seen some. Janice. She visited me this afternoon. I appreciate it that she went out her way and spent some time to check on me. Annie and Jerome also texted me wishing me to get well soon. Justin too. We are good friends, aren’t we Ja?(*wink)haha! Seriously speaking though I want to thank you all.

I really hope that I get well soon and all these problems that surround me be resolved as soon as possible.

after dark

Yesterday

My hands and feet were cold. My neck and temple were warm.

My eyes felt like some ball of fire. The rain outside was harder than ever.

I can’t get up. I settled in bed. Later it was colder. I was shivering.

The medicines I have taken haven’t put off the sickness I was feeling.

My flu was full blown but I can still manage to use my phone.

It was such a fateful day. The weather mirrored what was happening to me.

But at the end of the day I got better.

At night I noticed that the moon was shining brightly in the sky.

Sometimes I have to be in the dark to notice the Light.

Social Change

After the long brownout finally the power is back. I immediately checked on my online messages. There was some from Annie Vi’s brother who is studying at UPLB. It seemed urgent and important. He asks for my opinion regarding social change. Since it’s a rare opportunity and I would like to grab every speaking engagement I get, I did one and I have emailed it to him already. Here it is.

Change through Unity

Social change is the result of the collective effort of groups of individuals with a common purpose which is to bring on positive change and progress for the majority.

I think the main essence of social change in the Philippine setting is to be able to alleviate poverty. Why? Because if we will examine closely the things that happen in our society, we can see that the major factor behind many awful scenarios would be poverty. Let me give you a concrete example. It’s a usual happening that the jails in our country are congested with offenders. Oftentimes their offenses include crimes like stealing, robbery or hold-up. These crimes were their way of feeding their own and their families’ growling stomachs. My point is, if these people have been educated and have stable source of income will they still reach the point that they have to commit such crimes?

Silence

I feel like writing today. I think my prolific mind is working. Writing is something I really love to do. Keeping my blog has been my favorite past time for quite a while already. It doesn’t matter if somebody really dare spend time to read it. Just having to say what’s in my mind and heart is enough.

I still have projects to do. I know they need to be done but I don’t find myself liking to do it. I don’t know why. Maybe because my interests are off somewhere else. I know I have to curb it as soon as possible if I want my long term as well as my short term goals to happen.

There are many ideas that spring in my mind in times of silence, when I am alone. I want to write it down before they’re gone.

Then and Now

mainit

2:30 ng hapon.Masama ang pakiramdam ko. May sinat ako at parang scotch brite ang texture ng lalamunan ko. Siguro 38′Celcius temperature ko. Uminom na ako kanina ng gamot kaya ayos naman ako.Ayaw kong humiga na lang lalo akong parang nanghihina. Kaya heto nagsusulat ako. Sayang!Dapat talaga hindi na ako pumasok kanina. Naulanan lang tuloy ako. Isinuot ko pa naman ang paborito kong sapatos at pantalon. Wala rin lang namang nangyari.

FLAIR

October 7, 2008 at Lorentess Resort. Final exam kay Ma’am Alpha. OK! Flair na Flair!^^

Nung una hindi lang namin sineseryoso ang tungkol sa exam na to. Pero nung mismong time na kailangan na, siyempre hindi naman kami basta magpapabaya. Ayaw naman namin madisappoint si Ma’am at di naman kami failed. Maganda naman ang comment ni Ma’am pagkatapos. Sa effort pa lang ok na. hehe.

Nakakatuwa talaga ibang klaseng escapade naman. Lahat ng girls at guys dressed up. Habang nagpplay napapangti na lang ako. Una dahil nakkaoverwhelm. Di ko inexpect na magiging ganun ka big event ung play. Sakto yung venue para dun sa kwento ng play. Ang Dabarkadz lahat naka semi formal with matching black shoes. At di na lang sina Anne, Bianca at Riza ang kikayz kaming lahat na girls na!haha..Parang office girls kami!^^

Tapos dun sa part na parang may inuman sina pareng jake nico at bobsteel narinig ko Pañero tawagan nila. Aba kailan pa kayo naging abogado?!*_* ang alam ko dun sa script na ginawa ko mga nagoofis kayo na golf lang naman ang hobby. Pero ayos.Ang galing. Buti na lang di nabasag yung mga kopita sa lakas ng pag toast nila!haha..

Si Darwin naman hanep, english kung english yun pla binabasa naman pala sa laptop.

Tapos sina Anne at Janice na bihira kung magsalita sa klase tindi! haba ng mga speech! Ako naman feeling ko ang haba ng gap between words sa sinasabi ko, iniisip ko pa kasi yung susunod kong sasabihin.

Sina Riza at Bino naman syempre prang mga pro models sa scene nila.

Ok din yung tv scene at yung kina Shiela. Lahat naman ok. Cooperative lahat.

At siyempre ang kasunod ay mahabang picture taking. Wala talaga tayong kahilig hilig sa pictures.

Isa ito sa maraming bagay na hindi ko malilimutan sa klase natin.

This time may picture na tayong kumpleto lahat. Di na kami mahihirapan ni Aimee sa pag ccrop at pag patch ng mga pictures para lang makumpleto.

The guys and girls. BSIT 4 Blk2 Batch ‘09

(nakaupo) Jake,Bobsteel, Darwin, Nico, Jek, Bryan, Warion, Justin, Chester, Jerome, Kervin

(nakatayo) Pam,Nieña, Riza, Liezel, Bianca, Aicie, Aimee, May, Edwin, Alvin, Yorick, EJ, Shiela, Aron,Janice, Anne, Florisa, Jojie, Bheng, Annie, Elei.

*salamat kay sir sean sa pagtake ng pic*

Like a river

There are moments in life that I want to last forever.

Sometimes I wish that time will not flow anymore the same way the river will stop from flowing.

I want to hold on to every single moment when I can smile, when the world seems so kind.

I may have few material treasure but I have  people to care about.

I may not tell them how much I care but deep inside of me, how much I value them is not quantifiable.

sana

If only you are for real

If only you are not just fooling around

If only…

Apologize, Tamar’s cover YouTube vid

Memories of Home

I had a great time yesterday. We had a “real” class. It’s one of the few subjects where I can feel that we’re really studying, not just passing off the time. Our instructor teaches well. Our topic yesterday was about intellectual property rights, the copyright and piracy stuffs. I enjoyed the class. It was like we’re just having casual conversations. Ma’am happened to ask us whether we still have original things like vcds and dvds. I said yes. We have it at home. Kuya handed over his collections of sc-fi movies like Star Wars as well as Lord of the Rings and other titles when he moved to GenSan. My other favorites among those were Flight Plan by Jodie Foster and The Day After Tommorrow starring Jake Gyllenhall

That class reminded me of home. I want to be home. Fortunately the classes will end soon. But when I come home there will be no computer or internet, and no Globe signal too! But it’s okay. I might just watch these movies all over again and the pirated dvd’s I bought but I haven’t found time to watch until now. Actually, I haven’t watched in full all those six episodes of Star Wars though. They are rather lengthy. But I have watched over three times the Lord of the Rings trilogy. It’s precious! . I like Legolas a lot.  I also prefer the shorter ones especially the romantic comedies of Renee Zellwegger, Drew Barrymore, Reese Witherspoon and Cameron Diaz.

I am really looking forward of going home. There’s really no place like home. And of course I want to be with my parents and ate. When I’m home, being the youngest in the family, I am the “baby”. hehe. . Mama often scold me for being a little bit childish. She’ll tell me “Umayos ka nga, yung iba mo ngang mga kaklase nung elementary may anak na”. But I don’t mind it. I’m just being sweet.hehe. I consider it a break when sometime I dont need to be so independent and fully in charge of myself. I still find it comforting when sometimes somebody else especially my family looks after me closely. Maybe it’s one of the few things I will never outgrow.

We have a simple life at home, the same as what we have here at Ate Chit’s in San Luis. It’s not glamorous or techie. But it doesn’t mean were unhappy. Being together as a family is an enough source of joy. One of our traditions is to eat meals together. We laugh often when we talk about some funny things, especially if it’s from Tatay. He is not the type who talks a lot but when he does everyone listens. He got a good sense of humor.

I also miss our dogs. Eversince we always have dogs. They train the dogs well so all the dogs we’re loyal. When my parents used  to stay a lot in our house in San Ildefonso, we had a dog who swam through the sea that parts San Ildefonso from Brgy. Esteves just to follow them. That sea is a 25 minute boat ride. We have three dogs there as of now. The boss is Hunks. He’s ageing already. I and Kuya Joel gave him that name. It was during the time when the group composed of Piolo, Jericho, Diether, and Bernard Palanca was really popular. These guys were called The Hunks then if you can still remember. The second one is Nestea. He was given by a friend of my brother whose name was Nestor. The youngest one is Brownie, but I call him SamPiolo, he’s half-bred, so although he’s still young he’s already huge and barks a lot louder than the rest.

Hunks, Brownie, Nestea